hey, i havent been updating my blog for a long long time now; since i have another which is chewchuwychu.blogspot.com, been too lazy to update here, i hv received comments on my previous posts which was about the Japan Jenesys Student Exchange Program, im happy tht my post did help some; for your info; last year, i did not  get through the freakin program (i cried ok!), everyone will receive a letter whether you got through or not, i already know my fate when i got the letter, after reading it, guess what i did? i scrunched it up and threw it somewhere, i think its still under the bed :D whatever.
i DID NOT applied this year cause i didnt bother to eventhough i already had the form filled, the check signed, my IC phtostated etc. then i just left it there, i forgot to buy some stamps and then i realised it was already passed the deadline! hahaahaha, i dont feel excited abt going anyway; its sad, who doesnt want to go right? and like,, you dont need to pay anything dude! whatever; this year is killing me (softly) im suffering from major Stress and Depression ig uess, i cry most of the time; and i have not studied hard enough, its about 5 months til SPM people; hopefully i can do it :’)
so Good Luck to those going to the interview, do your best, the rest is up to them, make sure you make lots of friends, and also with the volunteers there! hint: they give opinions for which should be selected, so be nice to them.

please DO email me or comment here if you did get selected for the program, IF you did read my previous post, i want to know if i did got some of you peeps to JAPAN yo!
ahhhh,

many many many to talk about but no time :L

i’ll update this blog later,
soo many to talk abt DUDE!!
i’ll find my way to find tht “free time”
damn damn. SPM is coming.
arent you worried? no
are you sure?no
then? im freaking nervous )’:

its 1.05am inthe morning. 2 Novenber 2008.

november.

november.

november.

it means its my birthday!

i havent updated my blog for a while. exams over. FINALLY!!!
schools still on :( erggh. and now to wait 4 those results! arrrrrr im so scared. imsure im gonna fail on something.

ANYWAYS, i dont want to talk abt that
i want to make sure anything i write in here is good and useful enough for the readers. as you can see/read, i hv deleted all my past posts. yess. i hv bad memories in them. its all “their” fault. i hate friends. who would knw, friends are backstabbers.
they cannot b trusted. honestly, i’d rather believe in a person i’ve met for 20minutes than the person i’ve known for 20weeks (around tht)
when we say, friends r those who will lend a shoulder to cry on. keep all ur secrets etc etc
i dont believe in tht anymore. i cannot believe in HER anymore

ok. i knw. it has been a while since i attended the interview. heres the story.

me and my other 3 friends frm our school went there by 8.30 am in the morning. and there were SOOOOO many chinese, no wonder there were lots of chinese tht got selected last year. yes, malays were only 2 or 3 ppl. anyway, we were gathered inside a room and it was damn full. they called out our name one by one and i was very excited 4 the interview but nervous too. everybody had to stay there even if after they got through the interview.

yeah, i asked some ppl tht got interviewed and most of them were FRUSTRATED. they asked question tht you will never ever expect. yes, a chinese boy got asked “what is the AKAD NIKAH for?”. i mean like what!?!. i asked other ppl too and yeah they asked a lot on our own country (m’sia lah). they asked on celebration, religion, rituals etc. i waited for a v,v,v,very long time 4 my interview. while waiting, the volunteers did activities, it was quite fun ^^. we danced, acted, and played games. we were divided into groups and i was in the SNAKE team. other teams like lion, kitten,sheep etc. my friends got seperated and yeah, i had to make friends with the chinese.

haha. and then we had lunch. still waiting…waiting… and soon it was nearly 4.30pm. and my name still hasnt been called up. all those excitement and nervousness 4 the interview was all gone. i was too tired. i felt like i wanted to skip the interview and just go home. i ddnt feel like i will get chosen too. bcos almost everybody is applying for the two week program Jenesys to Japan. and guess what. 1000 ppl applied for tht and only 60 get through. thts lame isnt it? i was so frustrated and wanted to cry bcos i really3 want to visit Japan and seriously i want to experience school there. now i am in form 4. just the perfect time. lol. too bad. takde rezeki… ;( …

finally, my name was called up and i still remember me n my friends were the last batch and it was 6.00 pm already and we hv waited so long 4 the intrview tht only lasted 4 15minutes!. THE QUESTION, i guess every one wants to knw. well.

first, the intrviewer asked me: tell me abt yourself
then she went through my application form.. blablabla
then, as i expected she asked me what do i know abt malaysia.
i said tht i loved the different celebrations we hv here frm the malay, chinese, and indian.

THEN! jengjengjeng. she asked me what do i knw abt the Indians. thnk God i asked an indian earlier abt dipavali and thaipusam.
she asked me what i knw abt thaipusam.
i said tht they celebrate it with their family and pray
she asked me WHERE DO THEY PRAY
shit, wat should i answer?!?!!?
i said “at the temple”
she asked back “where?”
i said “batu cave”
she nodded yes. huuuuh!
she asked me “how do they get up there”
i said “emm. by the stairs”
she sid “ermm. how many stairs is there?”
damn. i said there were 100 over and she said tht i cant just guees and i said tht i dnt knw the answer. it was 200+ (TIP: never guess!)
yeah… and then she asked
” what abt the chinese”
i said “ermm. well. i like the dragon dance best”
she said ” what is the dragon dance for”
hahaha. i dnt hv a clue wat the answer is and i said “erm. well. to halau the bad spirit or somthing.” and i said “on chinese new yr they also give out angpows. red is for prosperity.”
i thnk it was wrong bcos the CHINESE interviewer looked at me so dull.
yeah, i knw, im not going to get through…
lastly, she asked me if i had any question and YES, if she ask you tht, it means tht they r expecting u to ask a question!
gladly i did, lamely. i asked her if she ever been to Japan. and she said NO. fullstop.
and yeah. tht was the end. i went out feeling FRUSTrated.

my friends too. they had different question but we were dissapointed.
went home. i was upset but i ddnt cry.

few days later, i cried. at night. on my bed. completing the application form was a major problem, i had to take a passport picture, photocopy my certificates, meet some teachers to signature some letters which they ddnt even look at and etc.. and i even sent it last minute. and i feel like it was a total waste of a time and not worth it. one of the volunteers told us abt her staying in Jpan, i t sounded so fun. but no. i aint going to japan ;(
yeah, b4 the intrview, i daydream/berangan too much. aku sedih gila ok! i even bought “japanese phrases for dummies” for rm33 just to learn a little japanese. me and my frens went to the library twice just to search for some info.

wat i expected them to ask:
why do you want to go to japan?
why should you get the scholarship?
or
what do you knw abt Japan?

no. they did not ask that ;’(

i dont want to think abt tht anymore. it makes me sad. fate in God’s hand.
i accept my fate :l

thank you guys
you have made my day
:)